Steve Maue

Sitting here at 4 A. M. I have been thinking about you, missing you, loving you. I'll be 70 in less than 2 yrs.....it can't be long for our reunion. Every day that passes, brings me one day closer to being with the ones I love. You, Mom, Dad, Johnnie, Gary, Nicki, Dean, Deaner, Booboo, Skippy, Ruff.....the list goes on. You get to be with them and Chief and Chief, Jr. and I'm happy for that. I love you, my sweet baby brother. I miss you terribly. 

I finally did it, Stevie - today. I made contact with an unknown family member. No longer unknown. I wanted to give you the recognition you so richly deserved but never received.
I love you and miss you now, for 14 sad years.

I miss you Monko. I love you as deeply now, as ever. My heart will be broken, til we meet again.

~this was Steve's song and it is brilliant. In the depths of his recovery he found wisdom and insight.
When he wrote this song. I was encouraged that even when his heart was aching and his soul was longing for more from life, that he knew he could turn to God.

Id hit my bottom, was at the end
til God reached down his mighty
hand, and
answered my prayers, when He set me free
So every morning I kneel
and pray
to follow His will for that day
and each night, I thank Him, for
watching over me
It seems too simple, but its true
cause after what Gods
saved me from,
I know theres nothing He cant do

Im just a man, but
a man with a plan
Im following God, to victory
Following His will, Im giving
up my own
Im taking the steps to serenity

To be successful, to be
a man
so deep in sin, wondering who I am
I was just a man, living in
captivity
Day after day, poisoning my mind
I couldnt live, I could not die,

even when I turned to God, I did not believe;
I prayed because some one told
me to
and now after what Hes given me
I know theres nothing He cant
do

Im just a man, but a man with a plan
Im following God, to
victory
Following His will, Im giving up my own
Im taking the steps to
serenity

My mind is clear now and I can see
that God must always
stay first for me, cause
without Him, I havent got a prayer
All of the pain
that I had to endure
I never thought Id be grateful for, but


Now I know God was always waiting there
God Im nothing without
You
God Im nothing without You
God Im nothing without You
and after what
Youve saved me from
I know theres nothing You cant do

Im just a man,
but a man with a plan
Im following God, to victory
Following His will, Im
giving up my own
Im taking the steps to serenity
THANK YOU GOD!

This is what Steve's brother Jerry said: